I want music
to seep into my ears
rippling deafening pulses
I want words
to eat away at me
I want oceans
to swallow me up
and spit me back out
I want someone
to dive into me
and swim to shore with
I want sounds
of laughter to bubble in the air
until my throat dries up
I want my feet
to outrun my mind
so my heart jumps ahead
I want to thump and sway
until my body becomes numb
I want the aching hurt
of nostalgia to sting
and itch
like the bite you can’t ignore
I want to stare
into nothing and everything
in the same moment
I want to care
so much
it crumbles me
I want to not care
at all
so I can float free
I want my mind
to dance in spirals
until
it stumbles to the floor
I want to feel
so much intensity
scatter it in my garden
let it sprout
and kill it
For new seeds to bloom